Well, now that I have your attention, Thanksgiving should be our daily experience, and not just a once a year celebration. SUDDENLY I have a new personal reason to celebrate and give thanks continually. I have known that I was forgiven, but still lived under the weight of regret that was tangible, until I was given a powerful, personal glimpse that my debt of sin, has been canceled. I had been listening to John Paul Jackson talking about enlarging the spirits capacity https://youtu.be/4i2PdW0O-bo and in the midst of it I was upset with myself feeling failure again over the times I had not obeyed the Lord. I was not in fear of losing my salvation or any of the rewards from times of obedience. I was not weeping for myself. A deep sorrow and regret for the impact of my sin upon my children…and all generations following was consuming me. I began to weep uncontrollably, crying out mercy for them. I then began reminding the Lord how I had forgiven everyone, and prayed blessings upon them, and even fully cancelled the debt my heart was demanding from them. I really had done all of that for others and was crying and pleading that same freedom for the generations after me, to be released.
SUDDENLY In my heart I was kneeling before the cross and weeping from the depths of my soul. How could I go to the judgement seat to give an account of my life, knowing the effects my sin had upon my children. I felt so sick inside. I was begging to know what I could do to protect my children and grandchildren and cause the blessing to be released to them instead of the effects of my sin. I was completely overwhelmed in sorrow, and now terrified to hear what God would speak to me when it was my time to go before Him at the Judgment Seat.
SUDDENLY I heard clearly the voice of the Lord speaking to my heart. I looked up, and Jesus, the Christ, was hanging on the cross with His gaze set on me. There was so much love as He spoke:
*AT THE JUDGMENT SEAT YOU WILL SEE, AND UNDERSTAND FULLY, THE VERDICT OF YOUR GUILT, AND HOW IT WAS ALL PLACED UPON ME AT THE CROSS. YOU ARE FORGIVEN DEBRA. I AM YOUR SAVIOR AND NOT JUST THE ONE YOU FEEL MOST COMFORTABLE BEING WITH. I STILL HAVE NOT SHOWN YOU THIS SIDE OF ME FULLY, BUT AS YOU HAVE BEEN REVIVED IN TAKING COMMUNION AGAIN, REALLY PARTICIPATING IN THAT TIME OF DIVINE EXCHANGE WITH ME, I REMIND YOU OF WHEN I CAME TO YOU ON THE CROSS ONCE BEFORE. AT THAT TIME I WANTED TO HEAL YOU IN 1977, AND YOU WERE HEALED. THIS TIME I GIVE YOU ANOTHER GLIMPSE, BECAUSE I WANT TO FREE YOU. YOU ARE FREED. FREED FOREVER FROM THE REGRET AND DEBT OF YOUR SIN. BELIEVE AND RECEIVE THE REALITY THAT YOU ARE NOT JUST SAVED, YOU ARE COMPLETELY FORGIVEN. I HAVE CANCELED YOUR DEBT, THE DEBT YOU OWE ME. I DID AS SOON AS YOU REPENTED. AS YOU ARE WEEPING EVEN MORE NOW FEELING THE TRUTH I AM IMPARTING, I WANT YOU TO SHARE THE DEPTH OF JOY I HAVE IN WHAT YOU HAVE DONE FOR OTHERS. DOING THIS IS SO IMPORTANT AND ITS EFFECT IS ETERNAL. I LOVE YOU SO MUCH. NEVER, NEVER AGAIN WALLOW BACK INTO THE LIES OF CONDEMNATION. I AM YOUR SAVIOR AND I HAVE SAVED YOU. YOU ARE FORGIVEN AND FREED FROM THE DEBT YOU WERE EVEN CLINGING TO. CHILD YOUR DEBT HAS BEEN CANCELED. YOU ARE FREE! *I AM YOUR SAVIOR. EVERY TIME YOU REACH FOR MY HEART SAYING, “I NEED A SAVIOR”, IT IS A BEAUTIFUL AND PURE FORM OF WORSHIP THAT ARISES LIKE SWEET SMELLING INCENSE, BRINGING COMFORT TO MY HEART. THANK YOU FOR SHARING IN MY SUFFERINGS. I AM THE RISEN LORD. THE GOD OF ALL FLESH. I AM THE SAME YESTERDAY, TODAY AND FOREVER. DEBRA THEREFORE, I STILL HOLD TO THE CROSS. *EVEN IN MY GLORIFIED BODY, I CLING TO THE CROSS, AS YOU HAVE LEARNED TO DO. YOU SHARE IN MY SUFFERINGS, NOT BY ENDURING WHAT YOU SUFFER YOURSELF, BUT YOU SHARE IN MY SUFFERINGS WHEN YOU ACKNOWLEDGE AND REMEMBER AND COMFORT ME WITH YOUR LOVE. HERE. WHEN YOU ARE SEEING ME NAILED HERE, IN MY SUFFERING YOU COMFORT ME BY STAYING. LOOK AT MY WOUNDS AND ALL YOURS WILL BE TRANSFORMED. PRECIOUS CHILD, I SEE YOU FROM THIS VANTAGE POINT OFTEN. MY SUFFERING PAID YOUR DEBT IN FULL AND RANSOMED AND DELIVERED YOU FROM DEATH. YOU ARE ALIVE FOREVERMORE. NO ONE WHO HAS ME ALIVE ON THE INSIDE OF THEM EVER DIES, EVEN WHEN THEIR TEMPORAL FRAME IS DESTROYED. YOU WILL REMAIN CLOSEST TO ME HERE, AT THE CROSS. IN THE GOOD TIMES AND THE BAD. BOTH ARE A RESULT OF WHAT I ENDURED. YOU NEVER HAVE TO JUST ENDURE ANY SITUATION IN LIFE. I ENDURED THE CROSS SO YOU CAN TRULY LIVE. LIVE-REMEMBER-PROCLAIM-CHERISH THE CROSS. I KNOW YOU ALWAYS WILL. NOW YOU KNOW TOO. EACH OF YOUR CHILDREN HAVE AN INVITATION TO MEET ME HERE AS WELL. I ASSURE YOU, NO CHILD COVERED IN SUCH TEARS, WILL EVER PERISH!
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